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Ok, so all day I’ve been sitting in my PJ’s. I haven’t brushed my teeth, shaved, bathed, or done anything hygienic. Around 5:00, my mom bursts into my room. “WANT TO GO OUT FOR DINNER? Heidi just invited us all to go.” I respond, “SURE!” So she shuts the door. I look at my shirt… I have blood stains on it, because I was picking at a scab. Then I look at my PJ’s.. they have a giant cheese cake stain on the crotch. That’s because for breakfast, I had cheese cake.

Then I look in the mirror.. my hair is sticking straight up. I’m wearing my glasses. I can visually see plaque in my teeth. I look like a freakin’ pigsty. “OH WELL! Ready to go!” I throw on my John Deer hat, slip on some slippers, and walk to the car. “WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU WEARING?” My mom was raging. I laughed, and then decided to drive.

I walked into the restaurant; everyone at Mia’s looked at me when I sat down. My mom’s friend, Heidi, screamed, “MY GOD, ETHAN, WHAT’S WRONG?!” I laugh and then put my head on the table and go to sleep.

Today has been the laziest day of ‘07. Also, probably, the funniest non-Chill Town experience for me.

JUST THOUGHT I’D SHARE THAT WITH YOU ALL.

Yeah…

Today’s been a long day.

I mean.

I’m not used to actually being busy.

Today was a reality check. I didn’t have one dull moment.

I woke up at 7:04 AM. Went to school. Got tons of homework. Came home. Worked on homework from 3:00 - 5:20, then went to swimming. Came back from swimming at 7:30m took a shower until 8:00ish. Ate dinner quickly, and did more homework. I did this until about 10:00. Then I finally got to relax by.. watching TV, hopping on myspace for a quick sec, and reviewing anatomy work.

I don’t think I’m digging this schedule. I miss coming home at 1:00.. having no worries. It was almost like a break every day. Now I’m back in school.. and it sucks. I don’t even have a math class, which stinks even more. I am going to forget all of my PreCalculus stuf come Calculus AB AP next year, and totally flop. This isn’t fair. I don’t like my psychology class. Anatomy is too much work. US History is a joke (literally, I hate everyone in that class. My only way of entertaining myself is to be a total suck-up to piss everyone else off and laugh at them). Spanish 3 is overwhelming.

3/4 my courses are learning new concepts that I’m not familiar with. Spanish.. 3.. I should be familiar. I’m not really familiar though. =/ Psychology… I have to learn about the mind; I am interested in it, I really am. It’s just the reading that gets me down. I need more discussions of the work, not getting text shoved at me. Anatomy is probably one of my favorites.. because I get to learn some latin-english terminology. Wow. Nerd moment.

And then REAL swim season starts soon. Like. 2 weeks. I will have no more terrapins (thank. god.) but I will have swimming 8 practices a week. I barely make it to 2 pratices a week for terrapins; how will I manage to ACTUALLY go to swimming? I am making varsity; I’m a captain, and the coaches love me. But. I won’t get my letter if I skip practices. Sigh.

This is going to be a long year, I can just tell. It’s also my last full-length year of school. Am I sad? Not really. If I were told I had to pack my bags right now, and head to some college, I probably would. I’m ready to move on in life. All my life I’ve feared the day I leave home, but I’m ready now. I’m sick of my parents. I’m sick of a lot of people at my school. I’m sick of restricting my true-self just to fit society. If I didn’t have Chill Town, I’d probably go insane. I am sick of prejudices. I am sick of being labeled.

I’m also sick of being nice to people. I would love to go one day telling every single person off about their flaws. What they do to piss me off. How they need to act. Am I the only one left on this planet who has an idea of deceny? Speaking of deceny, I’m sick of religions. This world would be a far better place if there were no churches, temples, or whatever religions use to cult their beliefs. I don’t like the thought of people controlling other people; it’s wrong. There needs to be more Deism, Agnosticis, and logical thinkers in this world. Less blind, raging, conservatives who think a book that says their God likes the smell of burning flesh, non-shaved men, and anti-whatever-the-hell-the-old-age-clergy-hated beliefs. Get your own opinion and philosophy instead of relying on a book.

Oh.

Zen:M needs to allow Canon Powershot AVI’s to work. I need to make the Chill Town DVD. It will be great having all of these photos and videos on a DVD, because one day, when I’m at my college, I can reflect on how much fun I had in my teenage years. I can say right now I have no regrets. I loved making fun of Kelina at Mimi’s. I love being known at school as well. People need to stop acting like Kelina and start acting like myself, Stephanie, Elysia, or Genevieve. The school would be a better place if they didn’t mind coming to school in hobo clothes, pajamas, bright-colored clothes, tie-dye shirts, or whatever. Abercrombie and Fitch and American Eagle 24/7 is getting old.

Yes, I am a hippocrite. I wear American Eagle. I’m sure I also cross-countered myself a lot in this blog.

It’s basically a vent for the computer to listen to. *pats screen* good boy.

Off to bed. Another long day tomorrow. It’s like the freakin’ wait time before the apocolypse.

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[-] Genevieve [+] Ethan [+] Elysia [+] Stephanie Went to Stephanie’s. Walked to Round Table. Saw her sister. Ditched her sister. Went to Raley’s. GOT A 28 OZ SMOOTHIE ON THE COLDEST NIGHT IN BRENTWOOD. Walked to the hill. Freezing. ass. cold. randomy girl screaming “TAKE YOUR FUCKING CLOTHES OFF” driving by running to the hill make it up the hill cuddling for warmth taking pictures stephanie calls mom “WE’RE AT ENCORE!” still on the hill… mom: BE THERE IN 5. Then we started to sprint down the hill to encore we make it there late. she still didn’t notice us running up actually. then we played gamecube. it was lame at the end when we played gamecube. :(((

1) School is nothing like I expected. Remember how last blog I stated “It will be a hard semester!” Understatement. I am so, SO scared for my GPA this semester. It’s like a Sophmore year nightmare, the workload that is I have to get an A in Anatomy. I have to get an A in Psychology. History, I would like an A. Spanish 3.. I want atleast a B. and uh. Swim Captain’s Meeting - this Thursday Swimming Meeting - 17th of January … off to read Anatomy.

#1

School starts in about… one day now, since it’s technically Sunday.

1) AP Psychology - Lynch

2) Anatomy/Phsyiology - Sanders

3) US History - Lynch

4) Spanish 3 - Madrigal

Yeah… Periods #1 and 3 will be my favorite. Periods #2 and 4 will be my bane of happiness.

I can’t even fathom the fear going through my mind. All I can think about is my sophmore year, and what a nightmare it was. I am just hoping the work load won’t be as bad this time.. because.. I probably just have a prejudice against AP classes now, thanks to Mr. Smith. I know I am prepared for Psychology unlike AP History classes, because I actually have an interest in Psychology.

US History will be easy. I aced Corado’s class last semester, and plan to do the same. lawlz.

#2

This summer, from June 10 - 15, I will be going to a swim camp at Austin, TX. Sounds like fun to me TBH. I just don’t know though. This is a huge reality check for me. I will be going for a few reasons

A) I love to swim, this will be good for me.
B) I will get to meet new, interesting people; be able to be myself without past prejudices upon me.
C) I am actually interested in going to UT when I graduate… Infact, as of now, it’s my #1 choice.

I am just hoping I like the campus and what not.

But what bothers me the most, is the future. In January 2009, I will be gone. Most college semesters start 1/16. I will be leaving Brentwood permenately, and only come to visit once every few months for like a week. I know, it’s a part of life. And I also know that it’s what I truly want: to start my OWN life, not mooch off of my parent’s likings of Brentwood. Austin… interests me. And I can’t wait to go see it myself.

#3

The future. I touched upon it in #2. But. I will be leaving Chill Town behind once I leave. I don’t think I will have to deal with anything harder in my younger years than this. They’ve basically retributed my old, shitty, boring life of going through the norm. Once I leave… I just don’t know. Nothing will replace what Chill Town was/has/will accomplish/ed.

When I arrive as an undergraduate, I will probably be a loner. I will then join a bunch of clubs and partake in swimming. Then I will go to my shared dorm and study my heart out with my annoying room mate who always brings his dates home with him.

Then I will come back on myspace, and blog. I guess I can’t judge my future, but it seems lame. A journalist. My main goal is to work to a high, worldwide newspaper though.. so maybe it will happen. I plan on going far. And I will.

/endsession